"Natapilok ako!" And my right ankle really hurts but I was lucky that my girls were not badly hurt.
We went to the mall today to do some shopping. As we were walking, I was carrying my Ina with my right arm while I was holding Amber with my left, I tripped with my white wedge shoes pulling Amber with me as I fell on the pavement. Ina was unharmed but Amber has a scrape on her left temple. I almost fainted because of the pain that I felt on my ankle but I didn't notice this at first because my foremost concern were my kids. I had to check if Amber's "booboo" was okay and when I was assured that it was just a scrape, the pain started to sink in. Dar, my husband, was concerned but kept on asking me what happened to me but I just can't explain it because I was still in shock.
Flashback 2005..... Amber was almost two months then when she fell from her stroller at one of the malls in Dubai. I was pushing the stroller when her birds-eye cloth ("lampin") which we use to wipe her fell and of course I have to pick it up but as I did, I mistakenly pulled down the stroller's handle with me which made my daughter fall because she wasn't fatened to her seatbelt. As soon as I saw blood oozing from her left temple, I became hysterical that I was repeatedly saying, "My baby! My Baby!," and just lost it. Instead of having the presence of mind of bringing her to the nearest clinic, I was there sitting on the floor holding Amber while crying. Dar helped me up while my Mom held on to Amber as the mall crew assisted us to a room where we waited for the medics to arrive. I was inconsolable because of shock and worried sick because of the thought of the damage that it might have caused to our daughter's head. The doctor, who was a Local (term for Emirati) and the Filipino male nurse assured me that Amber seemed fine because she was responding and still crying which are good signs after a bad fall. We werent' able to sleep that night because we have to observe her for any unusual signs. Good thing, the following day was her scheduled vaccination/consultation with her doctor. After her pediatrician reassured us that she's okay and can still have her vaccination, I felt relieved. I thought I was going to lose my daughter and worried sick of what the impact of the fall might be. We were blessed.
2009.......The pain is still there but am temporarily "cured" with the meds. Other than the pain in my ankle, it was the thought that I almost put my kids' life in danger (again!!!) that made me realize just how much pain I can endure for my kids. It also made me realize that when you're in a situation that needs your presence of mind, it's just normal to go blank as if everything stopped that you cannot think of anything else except that moment of "weakness." As a mom, this is a no-no but who can blame me for being. I made a promise to myself tonight to always, always have that presence of mind when I'm with my kids. Although I am not totally lacking on that aspect. I just don't want to have a third of this kind to ever happen again.
For now, I just have to apply cold compress and take mefenamic acid. I just might forgo with the wedge thing and just be safe and happy with my good old reliable flats.J
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